Soooo tired

"Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him.  Fear the Lord, you His saints, for those who fear Him lack nothing." Psalm 34:8-9

I woke up today feeling like I never slept.  It's so hard when I have days like these.  It's  hard not to eat a lot on these days because when I don't have a ton of energy I also tend to get bored...which leads to eating.  It's gonna be a rough one lol.  I just have to remember that "food cannot ultimately relieve pain, stress, or boredom-only God can"!  I'm trying to repeat Psalm 81:10 to myself when I feel the need to eat when I'm not really hungry. " I am the Lord Your God, who brought you up out of Egypt.  Open wide your mouth and I will fill it."  I've found that this doesn't just work with food too.  I try many other ways to fill up.  With relationships, spending money, and many other things.  While these things do work for a time, I always have the same end result. I'm empty again soon after. 
    Today was a good day all and all.  I'm still exhausted but I managed to keep myself under control for the most part.  Emma is teething I think and has been very fussy lately.  All the kids have been grumpy and on edge for the past few days though.  I'm sure that they sense the stress that John and I are under.  The boys also know that he is leaving.  John starting packing today and they are picking up his things tomorrow.  It kinda makes everything real.  I am sooo grateful that he's just going to Korea and that he's not going to be in a war zone, but a year apart is tough.